At the moment, i'm on my third week of psychiatry rotation, based at Box Hill Hospital but basically, I go everywhere for this rotation. This week i'm allocated to do child psychiatry and just being there for only 2 days, have forced me to write this entry.
Case 1 : A 17 year-old boy tried to jump of his car. Reason : He has had a 6 months history of being in an unhappy relationship and up to a point, her girlfriend dumped her. He reported that her girlfriend had been untruthful to her about almost everything and had caused him to loose his friends. He felt, angry, sad, unfair and decided that being dead would end his misery.
Case 2 : A 16 year-old girl who has been feeling depressed for two years took an overdose of her medication to end her life. She said that everyday she wakes up feeling 'why do I have to go through the same thing again,' The main reason she wanted to die is because she believes that there is no point living this life.' She still has suicidal ideation and plans but said would not proceed with them because of her mom.
Case 3 : A 21 year-old teacher in training with a history of multiple orthopaedic surgeries, started feeling depressed few months ago. She just cant keep up with her life not going well, having to go through the surgeries, being in pain all the time, being bullied at school because she cant join sports etc. Her mood went downhill since the past two weeks, precipitated after visiting her grandmom at the hospital. Being afraid thinking about the future, she planned to drive her car towards a tree.
What's depression?
Cant find a word for it in Malay, but according to DSM IV, depression is with 5 of 9 symptoms for at least two weeks with a significant impairment in social or occupational functioning. The symptoms are :
1. Lowered mood
2. Lack of enjoyment in usual activities (anhedonia)
3. Change in eating pattern
4. Change in sleep pattern
5. Fatigue
6. Feeling worthlessness / guilty
7. Poor concentration
8. Feeling agitated or slowed up
9. Recurrent thoughts of death or suicide
*Do you think you are depressed?? =p
Di mana pergantunganmu?
Perkara inilah yang really struck me. Mulanya, memang tak leh nak terima bila orang decide untuk mati just because they cant cope with their life. Mereka rasa, there is no solution for their problem and no one can help them. Tapi puncanya adalah mereka tiada iman. Keimanan bahawa Allah lah tempat bergantung, tempat untuk mengadu dan memohon pertolongan.
"Dan Tuhanmu berfirman,'Berdoalah kepadaKu nescaya akan Aku perkenankan bagimu."
(40:60)
Ucaplah Alhamdulillah wahai orang yang beriman kerana kita tahu dan kita yakin bahawa kita ada Allah. Bukanlah Allah as our last resort bila kita dalam kesusahan tetapi Allah lah tempat yang mula-mula sekali kita meminta. Bukankah juga Allah tidak akan membebankan suatu kaum melainkan mereka mampu menanggungnya??
Hidup ini bukanlah rutin
Ada juga yang ingin mati kerana merasakan hidup ini tiada tujuan. Nah, inilah buktinya bahawa manusia memerlukan manual = alQuran sebagai panduan hidup. Sebagai manusia, tak tercapai dek akal kita akan tujuan penciptaan, kerana itulah Allah mengutuskan para Rasul agar disampaikan pada kita, apa yang perlu kita lakukan di dunia ini.
"Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan agar mereka beribadat kepadaKu"
(51:56)
Penutup
Akhir kalam, ucaplah alhamdulillah atas nikmat iman yang tiada gantinya ini...alhamdulillah .
